Chapter 136

Assalamu'alaikum & Zellow peepz!

Actually, I'm not in a very good mood now and I don't know what I will do to everyone around me if I'm in this kind of situation.

Usually, anyone around me will be cursed and yea, if you think I'll smash anything around me, yup, I will do it if I could. I can even kick someone if I feel terrible.

I just hate when I feel like this, but I can't help from having this kind of emotion. I'm also a human with a feeling. This totally a SH*T!

Usually, I would prefer to keep silent and stay away from anyone. I know I can't get angry to anyone but like I said, I can't help myself because I always feel like this.

Whenever I want something, I could ask and if I really can't get it this time, I still can wait, but when the promise keeps delay and delay, I just can't stand with it.

Just say if I just can't get it instead of promise for another day. It's just stupid things to make.

I know I'm wrong, but just put yourself in my shoes, then you will know how I feel.

Yea, ignore everyone around me. Not making the eye contact. Keep silent. Just do my own work. 

That's what I am doing right now. Seems rude, right? But that's the only way I can keep myself from cursing others or just throw anything to something, which is I shouldn't do at all.

Tomorrow I will head back to university and I don't know when I will be back home. Sorry to my parents for my baddest behaviour on my last day here at home. I know I'm bad, but that's me. They already know me since I was born.

Should stop now. I just don't know what to say anymore. It's just a damn bad night for me. Need sleep and calm down. 

Will update if I got time for it.

Ciao.



Creditz ---> Zerochan

Chapter 135

Assalamu'alaikum & Zellow peepz!

Finally, I'm at my home sweet home. The mid-semester break just start for a week and it's been 4 days since I'm home.
And finally I find some time to update this tiny blog of mine. Actually, I'm still wondering whether I should update this blog with two languages or just use English for this blog. Oh well, I will just mix it up.

Well, like y'all been noticed before, I say that I was having a hard time last month, right? Yup, it's true and finally I make up my mind and I decide to let it all go because I don't think it will benefit me, in fact, worse thing is this thing might drag me into horrible depression that I couldn't imagine it. I mean, why should I burden myself thinking about someone who just throw those sweet words without any action when I could get someone better in the future? Plus, I'm still young for those kind of things and I don't think I need it now, I mean, after what had happened, I don't think it's worth enough for me to get this kind of things. So, better I back off. That's the best things to do.

I know it's hard for me to forget it, but I know I can do it because of the people around me. They always be with me, support me, courage me, especially my lovely parents and also my friends. I feel it's also not fair for myself because I always put that someone before me even I know it's not worth. I start to realize it month after the incident happens and yes, I should wake up and go on with my own life. Why should bother about someone who doesn't appreciate you?

Ok. End of that thing. I should start to care about myself and my family more than anyone.

So, how do I gonna do about it? No need to do anything because I already have plenty of work to do, in order for me to forget about that thing. Lucky me, I guess because this thing happens when I'm busy with my college's work, so I could pay more attention on my work rather than think about it all the time.

Thanks to Allah S.W.T. for making me realize about my own mistake and I hope that someone also could realize the mistake too. It's not a one-sided mistake, but also both, so, can't put all the blame just on me.

Okie. I guess that's all for now. Lazy to type anymore. Hahaha! Will update later if I'm kind enough to be here.

Ciao.

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